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stradial
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I don't think I've made any secret that in my past, I have...strayed from the "good" path, shall we say.
In fact, at times I was so deep in the woods that the path was just a distant memory.
Right at 22 years ago, after being as broke, monetarily. spiritually (which would include morally) and physically as a person can just about get, I had a life changing experience that lead me try and walk the "good" path.
I mention this because due to another thread, I was reflecting about my life now and my past.
I do not know why I am the way I am, where most of the time I have to be slapped in the face, several times, before I decide that this may not be the way to go.
I was taught the basic way to go down the "right" path, yet I chose to wander off into the woods, looking for whatever those woods might hold.
(Lions and Tigers and Bears..Oh My!)
Finally I was beaten into submission and yet, at the state when most people would gladly admit that they needed to change, I still felt I knew best.
Even when I met some people that said, "If you follow our path, you will have everything you ever wanted in life" and I believed them, I told myself, "Well I may not do it, after all it does require me to change my beliefs".
How sad and dumb is that?
The bottom line of this train of thought is this, some people are like me, they have to hit their head against the brick wall, time and time again, before they will even consider that they is a better way.
Even when they have seen the results of that better way.
Others are like my mother, who when shown the better way, at a young age, said, "This looks like a better way. I think I will follow this path.", and stayed with it.
Sadly there are a few who are like myself, except they never get tired of beating their head against the wall and sometimes they die while trying to run through it.
This thread is just some random thoughts about my life and the way that I had to find my way back to the path.
In fact, at times I was so deep in the woods that the path was just a distant memory.
Right at 22 years ago, after being as broke, monetarily. spiritually (which would include morally) and physically as a person can just about get, I had a life changing experience that lead me try and walk the "good" path.
I mention this because due to another thread, I was reflecting about my life now and my past.
I do not know why I am the way I am, where most of the time I have to be slapped in the face, several times, before I decide that this may not be the way to go.
I was taught the basic way to go down the "right" path, yet I chose to wander off into the woods, looking for whatever those woods might hold.
(Lions and Tigers and Bears..Oh My!)
Finally I was beaten into submission and yet, at the state when most people would gladly admit that they needed to change, I still felt I knew best.
Even when I met some people that said, "If you follow our path, you will have everything you ever wanted in life" and I believed them, I told myself, "Well I may not do it, after all it does require me to change my beliefs".
How sad and dumb is that?
The bottom line of this train of thought is this, some people are like me, they have to hit their head against the brick wall, time and time again, before they will even consider that they is a better way.
Even when they have seen the results of that better way.
Others are like my mother, who when shown the better way, at a young age, said, "This looks like a better way. I think I will follow this path.", and stayed with it.
Sadly there are a few who are like myself, except they never get tired of beating their head against the wall and sometimes they die while trying to run through it.
This thread is just some random thoughts about my life and the way that I had to find my way back to the path.